Sick, Fun & Rebellion

Sick

I got sick over the weekend with really bad sorethroat then flu.. than last 2 days cough… But i’ve been popping pills to not let me fall on the bed…It is working… hopefully I will really heal and not accumulated…

Fun 

Not of my usual self, specially when I’m not well, I went for Badminton last Monday AND Last night stayed in a long jam to Pyramid for bowling… and looking forward for my good company trip to Damai Laut, Pangkor. All with my 9am – 6pm mates…

Rebellion

With all this happening, there is a rebellion side of me that wants to be mean to people, wanting to be lazy and be my selfish self… the side of me that my family and old friends seen – wanting to argue, find fault and just rebel towards anything, anybody or any opportunity I can… Having so many hours away from ‘home’, I am easily shaped by what my desires are without wanting to learn and walk the “process” but want “end-GREAT bits” right away…
“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will”- Romans 12:2

There’s nothing wrong for being sick if you had already taken measures to take care of self, there’s nothing wrong for having fun for it’s people you are relating to, but it is wrong when you choose to let your rebellion taken over your life…
…In those times, I choose to close my eyes for a minute to refocus, shut my mouth to swallow what i would regret saying if i did and go to toilet for a prayer…